I’m going through a depressive episode right now, have been since Thursday. When I’m like this, it’s hard, tending towards impossible, for me to actually accomplish anything. These episodes come and go, usually lasting from a few days to a week and a half.
Sometimes I don’t even bother getting out of bed, I’ll just lie there staring at the walls. Other times, I’ll actually get up, but I can’t bring myself to actually start on anything, or finish things that I had started before the episode. That’s what I’m going through right now, despite the fact I have more on my plate than I have time for.
I am seeking help for this. After all, when you can’t bring yourself to even get up, it’s hard to get and maintain work, be social, etc.. It strongly affects quality of life in a negative way, and it reduces the faith and trust others have in me. I don’t want to be like this.
I don’t really know why I’m writing about it, maybe as a warning to others who feel the same way to go and seek help. Depressive episodes like this aren’t something you just have for a little while and never return; this is something you’ll be coping with for the rest of your life, so get a system in place to minimize the effects it has on your life. And if you know others who are like this, give them the support they need to make it through.
Depression sucks, but with the right steps, we can take back control of our lives. At least, that’s what I hope.